Random, I know, crying for me. Today I cried. I don't often break down, but it seems I feel free to cry when I'm around this one person. I don't know why I do. Maybe because I know she won't judge me. Life is hard y'all. I wake up every day, knowing how blessed I am. When I make it to the end of the day, and my mental scale has remained balanced, I know that God carried me through one more day, and I have a purpose.
There's a whole lot of mental work that goes on that no one ever sees. My Aspergers wiring allows me fantastic opportunities, and the trade out is worth it...ever thankful to God for my design.
I am in the world but not of this world, His word says so...
I will no longer be in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to You. Holy Father, protect them by Your name, the name You gave Me, so that they may be one as We are one. While I was with them, I protected and preserved them by Your name, the name You gave Me. Not one of them has been lost, except the son of destruction, so that the Scripture would be fulfilled. But now I am coming to You, and I am saying these things while I am in the world, so that they may have My joy fulfilled within them. I have given them Your word and the world has hated them; for they are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. I am not asking that You take them out of the world, but that You keep them from the evil one. They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. Sanctify them by the truth; Your word is truth. As You sent Me into the world, I have also sent them into the world. For them I sanctify Myself, so that they too may be sanctified by the truth.
Prayer for all Believers
I am not asking on behalf of them alone, but also on behalf of those who will believe in Me through their message, that all of them may be one, as You, Father, are in Me, and I am in You. May they also be in Us, so that the world may believe that You sent Me. I have given them the glory You gave Me, so that they may be one as We are one— I in them and You in Me—that they may be perfectly united, so that the world may know that You sent Me and have loved them just as You have loved Me. Father, I want those You have given Me to be with Me where I am, that they may see the glory You gave Me because You loved Me before the foundation of the world. Righteous Father, although the world has not known You, I know You, and they know that You sent Me. And I have made Your name known to them and will continue to make it known, so that the love You have for Me may be in them, and I in them.” John 17:11-26
So, yes, I cried. I don't always understand people, but I love them anyway. When I sense that others are unhappy with me, I begin to limit myself from their presence not because I don't care, but because I know they can't love me long-term in my design. It is okay. It makes me sad, but it is okay. I told a friend today who was anxious about a choice that was made in their life that God has a purpose and a plan for each of us. I believe this. Every day when I wake up, I'm excited to see who God places in my life. I can't say it enough; it is not by chance that I see who I do each day.
Random is proceeding, made, or occurring without definite aim, reason, or pattern. I am not that random person. I have my aim, my reason to live and I live with a pattern book, the Bible. My tears came at a random moment...nothing that a little retail therapy, in my therapeutic friend's business, won't fix!!! LOL
Life is beautiful.