When I was just a little girl, I knew that I was wired uniquely. I did not get the revelation of understanding until I was 58. God knew what was best, and I trusted him fully with my every care. Because Aspergers is a social wiring redirect, I grew up not understanding the social cues that other kids gave and grasped. I did have a very good friend that tolerated me and a cousin that had no choice. My life was good. I lived in my own little world. Both of my parents worked so beginning in first grade I would walk home from school and have the house to myself to recharge after a day of overstimulation. I would have a snack and sit in front of the big box, TV, and chill. I played outside with the neighborhood kids when the weather permitted. My friend's mom kept an eye on me. We would come and go from our house to hers.
I often tease that I don't like people. It's not that I don't like people, I love people, I just don't understand people. LOL I prefer people where I have lots of space to breathe, so small groups compared to lots of people. But, I can do all things when God calls me, even with my lack of understanding.
I have always felt the presence of God, even as a young child. At six years of age, I accepted Christ as my Savior, and the Holy Spirit became my best friend. The Spirit has been my constant medication for the highs and lows of my life. I'm always excited to make it through the day as I step back and watch God at work.
My life as a female wired with Aspergers is a gift. I'm still methodically unwrapping it. I know he has a plan and a purpose to prosper us as Believers. I'm not talking dollar bills here either. I'm talking blessings. When I think about the ways that God blesses me, I am humbled. In being humble, I'm willing. In being willing, I am usable. It doesn't matter if the world sees or if I know, but that I follow — my life, living thankfully.
Like the bees pollinate the flowers, we should plant seeds so that the Eternal crop is bountiful.
Fresh Find: These whimsical lucite rings would be great for wearing but also for home decor.