I am getting through it, a day in the life of me. Each day that I am blessed to open my eyes, have my heart beat, step onto my working legs and begin a new day, I must first stop and praise God for getting me through the day before and allowing me to be present today.
My whole day is built on balancing what is planned and preparing for things not expected so that I am able to function throughout the day. It takes a considerable amount of energy to mentally juggle all day, every day. I stand amazed when I make it to the end of the day, and I am still held together. It is by God's purpose that I am able to continue my functionality day by day.
In my days, I process my thoughts, your words, their actions, differently than the average human. From this I am mocked, ridiculed, excluded, bullied, unforgiven, and often unloved in my differences, but definitely misunderstood more often than not.
I don't blame anyone. I always blame myself, so...no need for you to worry. It is like trying to win, but losing and blaming yourself in the game of life. I had an autistic friend tell me that being autistic really sucks. My response was that I feel very blessed in so many ways to be wired differently, but I understand the life of one wired with exceptionality is not an easy one.
If the world loved, was tolerant, and opened itself to all of God's created wonders, what a beautiful canvas we would color.
I am blessed and thankful for where God delivered me and how he uses me. Through him, I can do all things. He provides my every need. He gets me.
From my pain, he grows compassion. Through my processing he creates. In my life, he leads. We are quite the team.
Thankful for this day, given to me for a purpose. Those are powerful words that I don't take lightly.
I once was told that I was too hard to love. My response to this is, take it up with God; he created me. For those who do take the time to really know me, thank you for loving me as God's designed & signed masterpiece.
There are many humans in this place we call the world. We are called to humble ourselves, to love like Christ and to accept (tolerate through our differences) one another just like Christ accepts us. When we shun another person, for whatever reason, it's as if we turn our backs on God. This is a hard lesson. It is hard for me, just like it is for you. It starts with what our eyes see way before it gets to the heart of the matter. Let's be sensitive to the Holy Spirit.
Fresh Find: I think this poster is sweet. HOPE!