I try hard not to bore people with much talk about how I'm wired with a different operating system. I get that many don't see how I could have Aspergers/autism. I get that. I really do. I think the first thing that I would say is that there are very few people who know me well enough to know me. I don't let people get too close. It is a way I protect myself, and it is a way that I protect others. 

God allows me to do whatever he calls me to do and I'm open to that. Everything else is up for discussion within the operating system called Aspergers. My life is a scale of weighing what I can do within each day. To balance my life is a full-time job. Don't get me wrong. I love who I am and am very thankful for God's selection of me to use in his ministry through his created exceptionality in me. 

Speaking of ministry, which is relational, and the key difference in my operating system and yours is my social awkwardness and the difficulty to continually nurture deep relationships. I love in a deeply spiritual way, so loving is not impossible. It takes an extreme amount of my core being. It is by the grace of God that I am called, and I am called with purpose, to love because he loves. It is difficult but not impossible.

I could easily let my life get me down, just like you could from whatever your life journey has been or is, but in Philippians 4:6-7, we are reminded...

Don’t worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks for what you have. And because you belong to Christ Jesus, God’s peace will stand guard over all your thoughts and feelings. His peace can do this far better than our human minds.

When our minds are in a meltdown, we must remember that God's peace stands guard. When we remember that he is in it with us, we can rest assured that peace will come when we let him give us rest; his strength, his lead.

We are all different in one way or another. I believe that my uniqueness has provided me growth in the understanding of human suffering. I can see deeply into others. Each one of us is beautifully handcrafted in the heart of a loving Father. We each have a little sparkle to share, a different mixture of amazing colors, and a different shape and size. All broken but put together beautifully for his divine purpose.

God calls us by name. We are loved, we are blessed.

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